Random nothing.


I'm still wide awake at 3 am and only Twitter stays loyal to me! Hakz! Lately, I've been having difficulty sleeping and have been too dependant on my medicine to put me to sleep. Insomnia much? Lols.

I had the intention to type a super long entry initially just to make me sleepy but I change my mind because I'm rather blank now. As I'm typing this I recalled the two humongous Angmoh girls ( Yes, I really mean huge like 85-100 kg and not chubby or voluptuous though size issues are subjective Lols) in tubes and hotpants that I saw justnow at Tampines Interchange. Yes I am ENVIOUS. It sets me thinking how some people could still lift their heads up high and feel great despite the disgusted stares and filthy comments they received. Oblivious or confidence, in both ways I adore.

Undenialby, criticisms have been a part of my life. YES. I live with it. I used to cry myself to sleep each and everytime someone criticised me, be it pertaining to my weight, appearance, academic performance, sports performance, family, BGR etc. Yes, I wasn't as fortunately as some to be born and grow up beautiful. I was always the fat ugly duckling everywhere I went. To add salt to the wound, I wasn't blessed with a proper family when I was young so there were more to be critisized about.

I used to think that people are cruel. Those who compliment are even more cruel because they are hypocrites because I do not deserve to be compliment at. YES. And so I believed. But things started to change along the years and I become more optimistic and buoyant in one way or another when I learned that there are sincere and genuine people out there, those whom you label them as Friends...true friends.

So friends are the ones who accepts you for who you are, supportive in whatever you do, compliments you and finds you attractive even during your ugliest, grotesque moments. And so I believed. Fot at least it earned me some gratification in one way or another. But along the way, shit happened. The circle of friends that had always complimented and supported me in every way turned out not so genuine afterall. Fuckheads! So friends who compliments you are not true then. And so I believed.

Yet again, I had to re-adjust. So friends who critisise you are those whom you should trust and appreciate because they are true and not hypocrites. They make you into a better person because then you will realise your flaws and thus upgrade youself and so I believed. So lately I've been receiving countless criticisms regarding my weight from these people called friends. Alot mind you. Things like "Ehhhh...kau nye weight gain drastic siak!!! GEMOK!", "Eh Mah gambar baru kau aku tgk makin montel ekh? ape jadi?", "Muke kau makin bulat eh especially ngan fringe kau mcm gini", "Pergi excercise lah! GENDUT siak!"....and so on...

So Imma being Imma will be solemn by such remarks. Insecurities starts piling up. So what happens next? Imma started consulting in dearest Hubby. So what will be Hubby's reply? "Oh don't bother lah people will never stop commenting what. Most importantly is how I see you right sweety? Or perhaps your friends are ignorant towards your feelings or maybe they memang mcm gitu? Memang honest and direct?" And so I believed that they are honest and direct. So what happen next? Imma become direct too by voicing her thoughts and opinions to them regarding their flaws. And so what's next? THEY COULDNT FUCKING ACCEPT IT! WHY? I THOUGHT YOU ARE OPEN AND DIRECT? SO WHY CANT YOU ACCEPT MY FUCKING OPINION NOW????

And how ironic that those who commented on my flaws are those whom are either Obese themselves or have multiple flaws like body ordour, dirty, acne-prone skin, yellow teeth, thunder tighs or whatever flaws you can think of. Oh what a pity to be Delusional. Its really sad that the ones blessed with looks are the humble friends and the ones who are less fortunate are the ones posting crude remarks about you. If so it was meant to be a joke and that I shouln't take it too hard on myself why can't you accept my JOKE too?

And so I've said it. Apologies if this entry is such a pain in your arse. This is my blog my say. And if there are too many gramatical errors and that its too Singlish for your oh-so-perfect-oxford-English eyes to bear then thats just your bad, I only managed to obtain a B3 for my GP not A1 spare me some leniency oh you fucking smart people. Anyways, I don't fucking care just go and scrub your face with chlorox. If it works, then lucky you!.

Oh great...this entry does make me sleepy afterall...=D

Peace out!

HAPPY 23RD B'DAY JOEY!!! =D


We had a srumptious dinner yesterday at Billy Bombers since its Hubby's 23rd B'day! The actual one that is HAHA! This year, there's kinda like 3 celebrations for him...Wah...lucky chap huh...Firstly, was the outing together with Syaza to get his B'day gifts, 3 entries below btw, Secondly, was the Arabian Night out with the surprise appearance from Syaza, Fad, Rozesky and his Gf, Sofia (Will be updated in the next entry) and lastly was yesterday's surprise dinner...=D Hope you like everything that I've prepared and may these celebrations be great memories to you...Love you loads Hubby! =)

Rock Nvr Die Bruther! =D


Ok as promised, the pics from Battle of the Band aka Rock Kapak competition....=)

Holla....


I've been neglecting this blog recently because I've been tweeting non stop....Hahaha! I guess it would have been the same for most people with a Twitter account...if you are wondering what it is, its the small pink box at the left hand side of my blog. It provide you with updates of what I'm doing....say for every hour...hehehe!

So yesterday I went to Tampines East CC to support Joey's oldies band for the Battle of the Band comp. aka Rock Kapak comp. Wakaka! It was fun lar sey, gotta meet up with all the veterans....Rock habes siols! And I saw loads of look-alikes, some look like Awie and some like Amy... Wakakaka! But for now I need to head down to the clinic because I've been sick for 3 days...OH-OH! Touch wood man...there has been a total of 599 H1N1 cases in S'pore btw...so I will update on the events later lah ekh....oh! I didnt go to work btw haisey...

Ok tata! Oh and look out for updates at my pink twitter box if you miss me...Wakakakaka! Chioaz!!! =D

YIIIIPEEEE!!!


The day didnt go according to plan...we were supposed to dine in at Pastamania but Joey felt like eating something else so I just followed lor since it was a happy day for us...anything will do...=D Guess what we had for lunch then...?

OH HAPPY DAY! =D


By the by...HAPPY 1 YEAR 6 MONTHS HUBBY!!! and yeah HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!! =D....we met justnow for makan2, jalan2 & jamming...pics will be posted later in the next entry otey...

Anyways yesterday Joey. Syaza & me went out to chill. We didn't really have any specific plans so we decided to just meet up at City Hall...where else...Hahaha! We then headed down to Peninsula Plaza & I decided to surprise Joey with his advance Birthday gifts...I bought him a high cut leather boots and leather jacket and yeah he loves it sooooo much and keep on bragging about it...HAHAHA! Thank God he is appreciative unlike some people....

BELOVED.


Oh man.. I had picture marathons at FB today...I have not been updating my FB album & sunddenly BOOM! All at one go...HAKZ! And I think its redundant for me to blog because most of the pictures posted here are in my FB album but its alright.... for the sake of those who got rejected or ignored in my FB account...all my entries are specially dedicated to you....with love, big hugs & sweet strawberry smooches...=D

So by the by...It was one of those lucky days that I had the chance to meet the busy Sergeant Fatah... Hehehe! So we headed to Town for my never ending search of the perfect heels lar...Wakakaka! Then we ate at KFC after which we bumped into Muhd larrrr...Hahaha!

Double P...


Oh yes...this is soooo outdated lar can...lotsa pending entries Hahaha so I have to pick one tonight & walaaaaaa...here goes my Pedicure & Pastamania day with Kogie Darling...=)

As usual, meet ups with Kogie will always be random because we are always busy with our own agendas. We headed down to Tampines for our Pedicure session and we had a hard time choosing the colour & ultimately I had the usual colour & Kogie chose candy pink! And hell...I really coulldn't stand the buffing and all lar....so ticklish! I DONT LIKE!!! HAHAHA! Btw sorry for the blury pic, its taken with hp bebey...

Yummy!


YES AH!!! Proven right I'm a lazy bum2. I wanted to specially blog this for Adik on her 21st Birthday....but oh wellssss....HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ANYWAY! 30th May 0'9 lar sey...very belated indeed...HAKZ!

So Adik accompanied me all the way to Yew Tee to hand in my redo-ed assignments but before that we went to four printing shops but none could print my assignments because I'm using the latest version of Word Doc. and so none could open it on their PC for printing and in the end we tried the one at Yew Tee and Walaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Bodohkan....kan lagi senang terus gi Yew Tee saje....BENGAPZ....! =D


-And that's Me & the Birthday girl- =)



-After which we headed down to Bugis to dine in at........Guess where this time....? -







Its HIP DINER USA BEBEY!!! It's awesomely GOOD! though the food is served in small quantity. You can really taste the distint flavour between the delicacies at Hip Diner USA as compared to the western food in Swensens, Breeks, Pastamania, Fish & Co. or wherever...prolly its the spices they use or the way its being served...I don't know HAHA! But there's no Halal cert though the Manager is a Muslim and he ordered Halal chicken...simply because they serve Beer...Heh...


-My Grilled Chicken-


-Adik's Ocean Fish & Chip-


-And our drinks...I've forgottten the name but its damn Shiok larrrrr cannnnnn...!!!- =D




-OK FINISH!-


-Posing Jom!- =D





-And so we ended the day with a smile....It was a worthwhile day indeed- =)






TATA TITI TUTU!!! =D

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