in the house....


bored siah...have to clean up the house for my sister's big day...aiyoh...

must thank me hor sista!!!

oh yar chatted with cornz in the morning...haha funny2...total madness...

its ok i don't wanna indulge in the topic further, just going with the flow...

i need a hug now...anybody??? haha...but i want that somebody...HOW??? haha...

told you, doesn't make sense just total madness...(chuckles)

BOOO!!!


See what happens when you are bored haha....:D

CHIOAZ!!! :D

Girl Affair...


I LOVE SITI AND I CANNOT LIE....!!!

we met to catch up on a lot of stuffz

my farz have lost so much weight aiyoh...must eat u noe...

and she did! WAKAKAKA!!!

we shopped till we dropped!!! hehe :D

must meet me again next week hor!!! haha!!!


UZ!!! :D



BYEZ!!!

God Bless...


It feels really embarrassing and disheartening to constantly approach somebody to seek for endless advice and guidance but im human afterall so thank you mother once again for everything...

Went to eastcoast with her yesterday, we went out of the house at 2.45 am, haha...it wasnt planned, just the sudden urged to get out of the house immediately. She met her friends over there. She looked happy. They were discussing on their next trip to one of the olf folks home, planning what to get for the elderly over there...i couldn't help it but to laugh the hell out when her friend asked " I wonder when is our turn?" and she looked at me...haha...

After 30 minutes, i decided to walk around and sat by the beach...kinda eerie...haha...but it feels good to just sit down and relax...(no no im not emoing) just comtemplating on some stuffs...as i was sitting down, i saw this elderly malay couple teasing one another...i was like eeeeuuuu...haha...but it was sweet though to see their love blossoming even at a very late stage...my eyes turned green.

Looking back on what had happened throughout these years, i realised that i've lost the battle. Yes its true. However its not too late nor absurd for me to rise up and change my destiny.With the wonderful people i have around me, i think that would be possible, however i am aware of the obstacles and challenges that i have to go through...

For now i just have to wait and see...i have to admit, i hate looking at myself now, my reflection has thus become my enermy....it spoils everything...almost.

Yesterday summed it all up, i got the answers to all my questions...almost. It hurts terribly, but i realised that we can't get everything that we yearn for...may u be contented with your decision. May God bless us...

SAPPHIRE RAWKZZZ!!!


For 2 consecutive years Sapphire Cheerleaders made me proud...:)

We set the stadium ablaze!!!

I love u all larr cannn???!!!

& not forgetting i love my Zircon Cheerleaders, fatah & salwa too MUACKZZZ!!! :D


UZ!!!



My HOTSTUFFZ!!! :P



My Zircon Darlings...:)











And me waiting anxiously for the results...haha!



GOODBYE!!! MUACKZZZ!!! :D

HAPPY B'DAY!!!


11th May 0'7...we did a small celebration 4 our darling may babiez, inez & salwa :)

Me, Amy, Tini, Salwa & Inez went sheesha together & was having a joyous gerls night out!!!

who says gerls can't have fun without boys...??? HAHAHA!!! :D

I LOVE THEM LOADZ!!! MUACKZZZ!!!


That's Us!



My Gorgeous Ladiez...:)



"BESTIE"...JIWA LAR BABE...!!! :D



Pweetie Petite Inez & Me...:)



ARDIOZ!!!

face it


its hard living in a world full of people who possesses preconceived notions about others

undenialbly, u cant please everyone...

seeing is believing they say...as i always mention, u cant see god but why do u believe he exists...?

well....judgement is indeed subjective....

the stereotypical view people have upon others is simply annoying

but then again, who am i to stop this ritual of life....

call a bitch, slut, whore, hypocite, whatever u want....

this is me....this is my life....

i give what i get....

you don't like it, then just move away from me

like you already did....

so dont create a fuss anymore

because i am insignificant to you now

lesser than a stranger indeed

the agonizing and tormenting journey has ended...

feel free to judge me, with due honour and respect

but never doubt the amore i once had for thee...

Should Not Have Loved You...


When life was empty,
There were you.
You were right beside me,
Helping me through,
Those rough time,
You were there,
In those many,
Lovely nights,
When I need you most.
Nobody cared for me,
Like you did.
I loved no one,
Like I did with you.

When I closed my eyes,
I could not sleep,
But think of you.
They were the many,
Sleepless nights,
When you could not,
Stay with me.
In the morning,
I could not think,
Of anything else,
But for you,
To come,
To see your face.

I loved you so much,
My life circled,
Around you.
My happiness,
My laughter,
My tears,
Everything in my life,
I depended on you,
On your warmth,
Next to me.

Should not,
Have loved you,
Like that,
I should not have,
Put everything on you,
I depended on you
,Now I am all alone.
You have gone,
You have forever,
Left me behind,
I am like the leaves,
Just dripping down,
Falling and falling,
But just do no know,
Where I will land on.

Should not,
Have loved you,
Should not have told you,
All those tender words,
When they are tears,
Every drop of tears,
Falling down my face,
Living without you today.
Too late to cry,
To late to know,
Because you are gone.

[ jiwang seh.....haha]

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