Thursday, July 27, 2006 Y

whatever...

You wouldn't understand.
Stop asking me.
I do it because I want to.
It feels good.
Why? It just does. Don't ask.
If you keep asking, I'll keep going...keep cutting,
Deeper and deeper.

Who am I fooling? Even if you stop asking me why, I'll keep going.
You wouldn't understand.
You need to be in my shoes, just for one day.
Then, just maybe you would get it.

You understand?
Yeah right, I wish you did.
Maybe you'd be able to see how much my heart hurts.

You just wouldn't understand.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006 Y

strength...

itz a dismal tat ppl got victimised by ur own selfish mistakez....

fickle mindedness suckz

wholly immersed in a world of shit

shedding tearz endlessly is no fun

hurting e ppl u love is even more grusome tat slashing ur own heart

what has happened...?

evrything's a mess

myriad of emotionz

n none make sense

except 4 e love that is still hanging tight

separation's an agony

devotion's painful

y.......

n again im clueless

a precious gift from above tat holdz a thousand anwer 2 every question

yet itz still a puzzle tat ndz 2 b solve

perhapz itz just a reflection ?

perhapz a blessing ?

confusion suckz

indulging urself with unnecessary emotionz is inviting death

still im appreciating e sore tat im goin through

life is not a bed of roses

let time decides

one thing 4 sure e reason im still holding on is because of you

God bless

amin

btw sorry peepz...2dae a bit emo hor......

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 Y

badai semalam...

aku tidak pasti mengapa hatiku rasa sebak dan duka sekali....

fikiranku berkecamuk

bergelora....

adakah ini salahku...?

atau ini dinamakan suratan takdir...?

berilah aku kekuatan untuk mengharungi onak dan duri kehidupan di dunia yang fana ini...

aku harus meneruskan sisa-sisa hidupku ini dgn hati yang tenang

tetapi dimanakah ketenangan itu...?

ketenangan yang ku cari-cari tidak lagi kutemui

adakah aku yang bersalah...?

masih lagi menjadi tanda tanya di dalam kotak fikiranku yang sedang dilanda ombak

mengapa harusku terus menderita...?

apakah dosa yang telah aku lakukan sehingga aku harus merentangi dugaan dan cobaaan yang seluas lautan api

tuhan...ampunkanlah segala dosa-dosaku....

aku merayu....

sesunggunya jika enkau harus mengambil nyawanya.....

ambillah nyawaku sekali....

aku memohon berilah aku kekuatan

tidak sekali pun terlintas di fikiranku bahawa aku harus menempuhi semua ini...

mengapa...?

tatkala aku memikirkannya hatiku manjadi sebak

bak ditikam panah berduri

butiran mutiara jatuh membasahi pipiku tanpa diundang....

kekasih....sememangnya cintaku padamu bukan diukir di hari semalam tetapi sudah sekian lama bertakhta di hati...

seandainya kita tidak bersatu di bumi yang fana ini....

akan ku dambakan dikau di syurga.......

salam sayang....

-Rahimah-

Thursday, July 13, 2006 Y

mysticmz...

to be or not to be?

that is the question.

certainly, i consider myself fortunate

& mind you fortunate is far an understatement

at timez i question myself...

y must i immerse myself in an abstract distraction that will only evoke multiple confusion & distinctive annoyance in life...???

again, ive yet to find the perfect answer.

perhapz, im still to early in e new era to be able to define the meaning of truth whatz more deception.

God help me pls.....

a piece of art is divine to one man but ridiculous to others

& that applies directly to love

love comes from our apparently innate desire to express ourselve, some of us atleast, feel the urge to be creative - but creativity is not alwayz innovative

itz subjective

& perceived differently by diff individualz....

expression that evoke wonder & appreciation & awe are definitely of upmost emotional value to anyone with an open mind or heart but sadly it doesnt apply to me at this moment.....

truth hurtz

when ur heart is controlling ur mind, itz depressing

but when ur mind is controlling ur heart......

it hurtz even more

to be or not to be

that is the question

[ps: sorry peepz....im feeling kinda emo...hahhahahahaha...!!!]